I am not happy..Neither are you!! I am not happy..Neither are you!!

 When I was very small, I thought happiness lies in family trips to exotic vacation places And I never got to go for family trips..for the simple reason that were none..;)

 A lil bigger, I thought being a leader would give me happiness So I tend to become the leader everywhere which increased heart rate,anxiety,stress etc inversely proportional to happiness… [And friends started hating me for writing their names for talking in class]

A lil more bigger, I thought I would get happiness from getting noticed So I went and participated in every damn thing possible..quiz shows, elocution, singing, dancing, mimicking, drawing….trekking, forestry and all sorts of weird thingsIt exhausted me so much and drove normal people of my age away as they thought

 I am some celestial being and so went the happiness too [Only consolation was I got some real good weird friends..whom I still love and is proud of...which ya gives me an iota of happiness] After sometime, when I couldnt get any bigger

, I thought happiness comes with money,boyfriend and independence And now when I am independent, making my own good money and has someone in my life..happiness is still a far away thing

All these made me conclude that happiness is an arbit unreachable unrealistic goal with whole lot of parameters involved within as even the simple relationship with my boyfriend also becomes a cyclical torture..I crib..He gets irritated..I cry..He gets sad..when He gets sad..He shouts at me..then I get depressed..and happiness is unknown…phew..definitely worse than game theory Whoa..Not so easy..I dont give up so easily…hehe So yesterday I went for TISS alumni meet..and I was gloriuosly happy..gorging..binging..dancing away to glory…which made me think..

WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY? I have a good day when others smile at me… A good movie with a good friend makes me happy… A long walk… An engaging conversation on a park bench… Gospel music in a serene beautiful rock built church… A genuine laugh… A harmless joke… A big bear hug…….. This is all I need to become happy..and suddenly it struck me… I GET HAPPY WHEN OTHERS ARE HAPPY!!!!